Dear Me,

I met you first standing in front of a mirror, standing on a stool with a brush in hand;

Dad was at the back, ready to pick you up and take you for a bath;

While mom served hot milk and breakfast;and dressed you up in blue dress and clips.

You knew you were cared for, they were consistent, predictable and reliable;

You experienced hope and security, and took it to your brothers, sisters, aunts and uncles;

And when you think of it, it was a fairyland come true.

Ah! And I do remember your Barbie doll and her utensils, She was a pilot, wasn’t she?;

I remember you demanding your mom for Burger and your favorite A-line dress;

You were every one’s darling and cousins loved dressing you up;

It was only your brother you felt irritated at, you dug up your nails into his cheeks out of anger;

and no one other than your parents could save him.

You wanted independence, your own choices, and wanted to do things on your own;

In your free acts, sometimes you succeeded and many a times you didn’t;

But dad made sure you don’t accept yourself as a failure;

He protected your self esteem by not letting anyone control or criticize you;

For him your word, was the world.

You enjoyed learning so much!

Mom and you sat with text books, as you spelled ‘BUSINESS’;

She picked up a watch, rotated its hands and asked “Tell me what time is it?”;

Uncle playfully rotated a globe in his hand to show you how earth revolved;

And suddenly you found such a dear new relation called “Teacher”;

He was so right and your parents knew nothing in front of him;

You were fond of your friends and worked hard to be the best among them.

You felt competent, and you knew you would achieve your goals;

You had no doubt in your abilities, and were proud of your accomplishments;

There were times you couldn’t stand up to the demands of people and felt inferior;

Soon you realized, its OK to have some failures, they made you modest and humble.

Finally you entered your teens and had your periods for the first time;

Out of fear you did not disclose it to anyone;

while secretly you judged and evaluated every word people had to say about it.

You discovered your breasts bulging and went to purchase your first Bra;

Shy which size would fit you, and for the first time you measured your body in your mind.

You saw your parents amazed at your brother understanding electrical circuits;

While your interests in word, drawings, designs and relationships were very generic.

Your parents still treated you like a little girl;

But in your imaginations you were a superwoman rescuing the world.

It was complex, you were confused not sure to be a child or an adult;

You felt angry…….very angry

And you wanted to question everything……life, earth, relationships.

You identified with yourself being a female in a corporate world;

Though you felt pressured with some choices,  you chose to carry on;

You sensed some unhappiness and rebellion within, but you had no answers;

All you had was integrity and commitment to the roles you chose.

No sooner, you were an adult!;

Experimenting with lifestyles and education;

Exploring relationships beyond family and friends;

Wanting to commit your life to someone;

Expecting world beyond independence, competence and identity;

And you found your way back into love.

You found happiness and safety in relationships;

It was intimate…

You were no longer isolated, no longer lonely.

Now you are on a path of expressing your gratitude to the world;

You have realized yourself as whole and complete;

No longer you complain, crib about circumstances;

You want to contribute and be in service.

There are are many who have suffered…

Fear, shame, guilt, inferiority, confusion, loneliness, stagnation and despair;

You want let them know who they really are;

You want to be generative and pass on goodness.

And when you look back;

you will know you have lived a timeless life,

A life of your creation

Equipped with freedom, power and self-expression:)

Anuja Agarwal

I am a behavioral, leadership and financial Trainer. I am a Chartered Accountant, a Neuro-Linguistic Certified Practitioner, a Landmark Curriculum graduate and an experiential educator. I am very passionate about traveling and music and keep participating in running events like pinkathons and half marathons. I have touched upon every state in India except five states in the northeast and have been trained in Hindustani classical music for two years.I am also the founder of the organization Creative Kabira which has a vision of unleashing Creative confidence in younger citizens of the world.


Niraj Posted on6:54 pm - Nov 26, 2017

Really well written you have poured your heart out

    Niraj Posted on6:56 pm - Nov 26, 2017

    Really well written you have poured your heart out, looking forward for more articles

Arun Jose Posted on3:22 am - Nov 27, 2017

Your articles are getting better one after another. Keep going!
The conclusion could have been a little more elaborate in this one. Personal opinion though 🙂
Convey my regards to Paulo Coelho 😉

Arun Posted on5:53 pm - Nov 27, 2017

Feelings narrated very well.

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