Wanted you to hug me when I was emotional and nervous You raised your voice and made me jittery Wanted you to care for me when I was ill You chose to neglect and made me feel worse Wanted you to listen when I had so much to say You didn't spare your time and it left me stilled Wanted you to perceive when I ran out of words You stole my words and made me tremble Wanted you to be there when I needed you You abandoned and left me bereft Wanted you to love me for who I was You chose not to notice and made me suffer Wanted you to kiss me when I behaved like a child You taunted and tainted the child in me Wanted you to protect me when I felt insecure You threw me to the winds and left me vulnerable Wanted you to be proud of me when I succeeded You felt envious instead and trampled all over my dreams Wanted you to be compassionate when I was faltered Your violent outbursts made me feel I was a felon Wanted you to be a friend to share everything with you You became an adversary and killed my soul Wanted you to encourage when I was feeling low You confused me and left me devoid of convictions Wanted you to be gentle when my monthly cycle was on You overlooked my discomfort and made me feel agonized Wanted you to appreciate and please me You put me down with your words and your intent Wanted you to hold my hand when we were out and to be proud of me You stayed aloof and made me feel unwanted Wanted you to value my emotions and make me feel complete You stepped on my feelings and made me feel worthless Wanted you to be mine forever to respect all our vows You hoaxed and throttle our bond Will you ever be able to tell me where did I go so very wrong?
I, Meenakshi Raina, from “The City of Temples (जम्मू) and The Paradise on Earth (कश्मीर)” (J&K), have a great passion for Writing, Singing & Travelling. I am not any Literary expert yet having enough to write because of experiencing Life from different dimensions. I am thankful to everyone in my Life for helping me to explore myself and to feel and understand the process of Divinity. Humble Gratitude to “Infinite-Spirit”.
My Belief – “You can’t believe in God until you believe in yourself”.