It feels I have crossed ages when I don’t write. You know every single day we live; we have something new to dream about, something new to chase, something new to create, something that keeps us alive. I encountered myself thinking too much about everything these days. From issues big or small, I have been redefining the ways I deal with them. For an instance, I just began to think why should I write frequently. Just because I love to do so or is it because people want that from me or may be I am too bored to do anything else. I have no definite answer to this.
I am really engaging myself into a question that whatever it may be, I write not because I have to. Rather I chose to. For there is some sort of connect with myself when I freely express. Be it on paper or be it with the individuals around me. Now as I look back to see what is it that I have bough forth, then there is an experience of me having the power to be just ME where the world is trying to be like everyone else.
There is something I wish I could totally change
I eagerly wish I could
My urge for getting all the unanswered questions increases
And then nothing seems to change for good
How hard I have been trying
To reach a level one or above
And then more I was misunderstood
Okay! Okay ! I shout aloud
This is something I care about
And surrendered to my falsehood
I am entering into an unknown territory
Where I see no livelihood
What calls me then I ask politely
A bit humbled for I may demean myself
“Don’t change” for it will remain the same
A voice triggered my brain
‘Carry your faces however it might be
There will be something for you in adversity
If you could just see it through
For there is sunshine after the rain.’
All this while there has been an unnoticed synergy. And then there is an intervention of some bigger cause that keeps me fixed. A change what I call as a need for now changes nothing without me being a cause and that ultimately calls for a shift in the mental state.
I would now rather quote situations as not a CHANGE in something or someone but a means to shift from what it costs to be the same.